Body of Mine
I’ve treated you with such disdain and little regard
And yet, here you are, still with me.
I took my pain out on you – what else was I to do?
I didn’t know how to care for you.
Years of childhood fears and adult demons fought you with a vengeance.
I didn’t hear your quiet screams, drowned out by the rage and sadness I couldn’t get away from.
I didn’t heed your voice crying out, begging to be held and protected.
I didn’t know how to love you then.
You wouldn’t bend to my will when I starved you.
You stood your ground as I stuffed feelings down deep into your belly with food and wine as they took my pain away, for a minute.
You held your own as you grew and filled out, defying me and the vision I so desperately wanted.
I never meant to hurt you.
I just didn’t know how to trust you.
Somewhere along the way I forgot you were my champion.
I turned away from you, praying I’d find answers outside of you.
I tossed and turned to diet plans that worked until they didn’t, without one thought of you.
I just didn’t know how to listen to you.
I felt betrayed by you more times than I can count.
Why couldn’t you lose the heavy weight I carried?
Why couldn’t you see that all I wanted was to be seen?
Why didn’t you know I just wanted to be beautiful?
I didn’t know how to help you help me.
We’ve come a long way since the beginning!
My words are kinder and softer these days.
My ears are attuned to your rhythms.
My arms wrap around you honouring you as never before.
I hear your whispers and feel sensations deep from within,
I didn’t know you were protecting me then.
Body of mine.
I’m amazed you’ve survived!
Life with me was never easy; harder than it needed to be.
Bear with me today as I continue my journey.
Together we’re better, stronger, wiser.
I’m so grateful for you and the power you’ve given me.
Forgive me. It’s taken too long to figure this out.
I didn’t know we could become one.
This prose came to me in a moment when I was reflecting on my relationship with my body over decades. This body of mine has been through so much with me and finally I can say I truly respect and value her no matter what size or shape she’s in.
My coaching practice has expanded to include anxiety, stress, breakups, grief and loss, identity shifts, as well as unravelling the issues that keep us stuck using food as a way to soothe and care for our minds, bodies, and souls. Using a variety of tools and techniques, especially Emotional Freedom Techniques (EFT or tapping), I love witnessing the change and transformation my clients experience. Being able to eat with ease and pleasure, taking care of ourselves emotionally, moving our bodies because we want to, listening to the emotions and sensations within us that guide and protect us, problem-solving instead of reacting - these are the outcomes of our work together.
I’m currently offering:
Complimentary Discovery Calls where we explore what’s important to you and what step(s) you can take immediately to support you moving forward in your life. We can also chat about working together although I’m not into selling you my services or convincing you we should work together. If we’re a good “fit” and decide it’s worth the investment for both of us, we’ll know!
One-to-one sessions: private sessions where we work on what’s important to you. Come ready to do “the work”. I hold the space for you to become more of the woman you want to be, using tools and techniques that allow you to transform and change as you’re ready.
Reach me at Let's Connect or here on my website Contact Me
Thank you for reading!
With Gratitude,
Joan
